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So much has gone on since the last time I wrote to you. I'm not sure how to express it all. I will say that life teaches you things that you never wanted to learn. Disappointments are greatest when you have the most the win. Inevitably having the most to win means you have much to lose. I never thought of myself as a gambler, or a huge risk taker for the vast majority of my life. However, a romantic is indeed the biggest risk taker of them all. I never realized it before. Every time I say I love you, I risk my entire heart for a small chance to have it filled with a helpmate's smile. Every time I allow someone into who I am, I throw the dice. Its all because of free will. Even God wont make people behave in the way He desires. It has to be their choice. So, I love. Without restraint, without a boundery and I always will. I am never sorry that I'm this way. I'm never sorry that I love completely. It is who I am and, who God made me to be. I like that about me. So while my heart teeters on a small, narrow stick, high above the clouds, I will continue on in who I am because God always heals me. He always keeps me and I am grateful. In His time my heart will mend, as it always does. In His time 'the one' will walk through that door. In His time it will all work out. When joy comes in the morning. I be there waiting on it with open arms. But i'm not changing the core me not for this world. Who am I? A romantic. A solider. An optimist. A perseverer. A child of the Most High.